Since it has been so long since I journaled and blogged here. I figure I might as well bring you up to date.
My dad died early this year. He was healthy and was still young(ish). He was still very active and was in the prime of his life. Then, he died in his sleep one night.
Being a daddy's girl for a few decades made this time rather challenging.
Then, my husband and I decided to move into his house. That meant selling our house and moving a few weeks ago nearly 2,000 miles across the country so we could return home to Colorado.
Our movers only delivered half of our belongings (long story) and it's been weeks and we are still waiting on receiving the rest of our stuff.
And through different circumstances, our contractor working on our Colorado home wasn't able to finish working on our house and is still working on it. He's doing amazing work and we love him to death. He's a great guy.
Several things have gone wrong over the last month and I've been forced to cling to my faith with every fiber of my being. And because of this, what could be a very awful and challenging time has lead to more blessings than I can count and it has led me to this project... this One Chapter Per Weekday Project of going through the Word one chapter at a time and journaling about my journey as I travel this road.
This year has been full of challenges. Losing my dad has been hard.
But, even with the hard, there has been great blessing. Unexpected blessing. For example, where I set up my study, where I type this now is in what was his master bedroom. It's where he died. And I cannot even begin to tell you how special it is to spend time with the Lord and go through the Bible with Him... and blog/journal this now. It seems more holy and sacred somehow. I cannot even begin to tell you the peace I feel setup here. I know that the Lord is with me in a very profound way. Therefore, going through the Bible has also taken on more meaning.
After all, my earthly father has departed this earth. He is not here. So everything I had with him, I have now with God alone. Needless to say, my relationship with the Father has far more meaning and depth than ever before and that is why I am reading through the Bible and am trying to get as much out of it as possible through the course of a day versus reading several chapters at once and hurrying through it.
No. I never in a million years would have ever expected the twists and turns this year has taken my husband and me. Moving back home to Colorado was not on our radar. Living without my earthy daddy at this time was not foreseen.
I hadn't realized being back in this house, as I lived here for about eight years, would be such a sweet homecoming. Yet, it is. I feel closer to the Lord than I ever have before, my Heavenly Daddy. My Abba. My Father. I am a whole different kind of daddy's girl now.
As much as I wanted to embark on the great adventure of going through the Bible one chapter at a time in the past, and have tried to for a couple of decades, it's different this time. It's very different. I am relying on my Heavenly Father in a whole new, deeper, more meaningful way. I am depending on Him far more than I ever have before. And He is blessing my socks off constantly. Even through the challenges.
No. I never imagined this journey in 2021. Nor can I describe how tough it is, but how easy it is. I just know that I wouldn't trade any of it. It's made me far more dependent on the Lord and that is quite special. What a blessing this year has been.