2 steps back, 1 step forward

 So, yesterday, I talked about wanting to make spiritual progress for the rest of the year. You would think that the very same day, I would remember this.

But I didn't.

I blew it in so many different ways.

I hang my head in shame.

Then I get frustrated.

Two steps back, 1 step forward is how my day went yesterday after making this renewed commitment of focusing on Him first and being steeped in the Bible. (Ugh!)

When am I going to learn?

Those nasty tapes (recordings) of scolding myself come to mind. And I do that a little before I remind myself of these things:

~ John 3:16-17

~ Psalm 103:8-18 (and all of Psalm 103 for that matter)

~ Isaiah 1:18

~ Matthew 9:1-6

~ Luke 7:46-48

~ Romans 4:6-8

~ 1 John 1:8-10

~ Romans 8

I am forgiven.

Now, I just need to try to do things differently. (I make that sound so easy... when it is anything but.)

Lord, have mercy on my, a sinner.

Help me focus on You first and foremost, as I am steeped in Your Word, and pray and listen to You fully before I act. In the name of Jesus.

Have you ever been here? In this place? Knowing you did wrong? When you know good and well how to do things better and differently?

How do you handle it? How do you repent (change) and do things differently thereafter?

How do you forgive yourself?

How do you approach the throne and the Lord thereafter?

How does this deepen your relationship with the Father?